Im sorry I failed you, if thats what I did.

Im sorry I wasn’t good enough to help you.

Im sorry your problems beat my own.

Im sorry I have a temper.

Im sorry I’m a human being, with feelings of my own.

If you can’t accept my apology, I won’t bother with you anymore.

You left me alone, brokenhearted, staring at your retreating figure.

I’m lonely without you, yet I’m relieved.

Relieved to ease some of the burden on my shoulder.

I have suicidal thoughts.

Yes, because of you I think of committing suicide.

Because of you, I’m more depressed than not.

Because of you, my own friends pity me.

Because of you, I have a therapist, because my life is a living hell.

I thank you for the pain you put me through.

It’s made me stronger, less gullible to your lies.

I can’t believe that you had the nerve to lie to me, after all this time.

It hurts me to admit, that I’ll most likely forgive you by the end of the day.

But it’s true, I can’t fully hate you.

Yes, there are moments, but not all the time.

You don’t know any of this, and I doubt you’d care.

You know what? I’m not sorry.

But honestly? I miss you.

But that's messed up

Desperation, an empty soul and cluttered mind.

A soul so lost, a feeling of being left behind.

My mind tries to speak, but the words do not come.

Dull the pain. Make me whole. Make me acceptable to all.

Opening the little brown bottle as they call out to me.

I am your friend, I have your soul, merge with me.

We can go to that happy place where there are no expectations.

I will be your friend. You need all I have to give.

Don't stop at one or two breath me in take all I have to offer.

Eternal peace,eternal damnation, Don't feel your pain.

Numb it, bury it, swallow your pain .

You have everything to lose and nothing to gain.

Fall on the floor, the bottle in your hand .

Your pulse faint and weak. Let them feel the pain