does this mean you are leaving the site or this world???

this world

aw babe...i willmiss you. i understand though. you haven't disappointed me, i am only disappointed in the situations that led you here. i hope you don't go through with this, but i'll love you just the same if you do. just know you are beautiful and precious and you don't have to be perfect anymore. please don't go, babe, i don't know what i'll do without you. be safe,

babe you got me worried, i hope you are okay, please don't do anything drastic. sweetheart you have so much to live for, you are amazing, please stay.

Hello overtheedge86 :) Just saw your post.... I don't know your story. And honestly... I don't have the time to read all your posts elsewhere. The only time I have is NOW!!! FOR YOU!!! So, what's up honey? Why are you looking to leave this world?

not like in real life so i could actually do something to help her

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so??? is there any way you can help her?

I am not in this group, but I feel so touched by this that I am forced to respond. I truly hope that things did not go as planned and that overtheedge86 did not go through with this. I have been at that low point when nothing matters and the choice to take my own life seemed easier. I really, really hope that this is not the last we read from, overtheedge86.

I just wonder how things went with this.

Please talk to us!! We are here to help!

hey girl are you okay? im worried

Chic, Thank you so much for the great news!!I hope she feels like coming here again soon!She has friends here, some old some brand new!! Give her my best!

@Just A Chic From Brooklyn, thanks for the update. Please let her know when you talk to her that there are people that care and are asking about her. I am glad she is still with us and hopefully with time she will be back on the site. Thanks

WhatMay God bless you he blessed me, my son is now 30 years he was 2 when old when his mother ran off I was in the army then (20yr) . At least you have some one in your life I don't. I spent the holiday alone I had no turkey. I came to a conclusion I need to got for treatment at the VA on monday. My 13 and 14 year old live with my estranged wifewife for 9years. she seperated the family in 2003 she wants to make it work now and now realizes they need their father. I tryied to live with them during the summer but they have learnt to live without a father. But my son wants me to be their but they learnt ingnorance from their mother. I came from a one parent home my father died when I was 6years old my mother taught us well and were raised with respect. Their mother is liberal and she is not a disaplenary they have attitudes because of it but I keep them in check. But when I do she trying telling me thats enough. I moved out 10/2012 I had to because it was going to get ugly. I relaped and I am going for treatment monday. I want to be a father and/husband but her pride and arrogance won't let me. I never hit her but in 2003 I put her up against the wall because of the same reason. I wanted to be a husband to her

I hope you don't think I am probing, I just like to try to help your pain. I am lamatheid and I know how you feel. I have no friends either none!! I moved from my wifes house about a month ago after being seperated for 9+ years my children don't understand me. my estranged wife don't believe in me. I relapsed because of loneliness I am not working, i am in school online but I feel like I am not worthy I feel inferior not working.
I decided to go to the VA to get treatment next week. I live alone and I have no friends no acquaintences. I pickup to get some joy in my life but its all more misery. Thank God, you have someone around. I have no one my children love me but they cant show it or their mother. I told her I did not love her and the divorse court date is coming in the mail. I call but noone answers I been lonely for 19years at lest probably more. Going to treatment and taking time off from school right now will benefit me. I need to be around people I feel like dying at times. Whats going to happen is when I get my deposit I'll pay my rent and other bills maybe and do some shopping for the month and then party and I'll get sick then have to strain my brains to do my school work and that really sucks.
Talking about feeling like a worm, guilty, shame ,angry, lonely, worthless,just wanting to stay in bed and sleep as long as you can. My way out now is to go to the VA and get into treatment and pbe around people. I need that boost so when I come home i'll have a program again, I know the down fall going to and fro self help meeting and therapy but I have to do it. I know the way out and this is it if I have to take medication I will I need people in my life I need a balance. I hope you get to know your way out and just take that route. This week end I am just going to get my self mentally ready and write my landlord and tell him I'll pay him when I get back.

s going on and how can i help? Here is my story

You are all very welcome. It's the least I can do. I only hope she comes back online, as well. She needs to see for herself, how many people, care for her well being. I don't know her personally. But that doesn't even matter to me. What matters to me is, she, and many others need help. In many ways. That's what this site is all about right? As for me, Well I guess this site is just another purpose in my life. EVERYTHING in life, happens for a reason. EVERYTHING!!! And the suicide of my friend and of my boyfriend, has led me to help prevent others from making the same awful mistake. The pain of losing a loved one to suicide, has been the hardest pain, I have EVER had to deal with!! EVER!!! And tomorrow will make 10 years that my older brother, Joe, died from Hep-C/HIV. My brother was my life. Trauma? My darlings, i've had nothing but trauma in my life. But it all happened for reasons that only god knows. It's when you realize, what you have been through, and what can be done about it, and turn it around, for the sake of helping yourself and others. Through your pain, you CAN help others. That's what I have come to learn. And it is working!! :)

Yes, my dear, it is working. Thank you for being so strong. I like to believe too that your brother is so very proud of you. :-)

Sounds like a LOT! Everyone here has so much apind and yet they all help each other. I find so much compassion in the ones that suffer most. That is what ZI tell my dauhgter, to stay alive so she can help others, but right now she is in too much pain to care about that, she cant see that as possible. This is great news though that you got a response from her and she is still having hope and I know she will beat this. I just want to sedn hugs to you both!!

My drug of choice are alcohol/crack/skeezers all because of loneliness. I got clean in 1992 for 7years got married when out for a bit clean for 3 1/2years, 2 1/2,11month, 11month 6months,9 month, 2 1/2,I dont get hihg every day i just hadn't surrendered yet. I need to get a divorse and get counseling for the church objective i cant divorse and be married again. I love the lord but religion(not the bible) keeping me in a marriage were theirs no love and never was is pere religion.

I was mentally abused and emasculated besides never finding love and comfort from a women ever I fear god that is why i was afraid to divorse but now i know i can, but still it is hard because i was taught that from a child. Can you believe i am in school for my BS in substance counseling and i have 2 certificates in the field.

If your still here overthedge, dont go.

my life is over and i only hope that no one hates me.

i hate my life and i want to die.

dont die your worth living
i care about you we all do

dont die your worth living
i care about you we all do

baby, i love you. don't go. we need you here with us. i wish i could make it all go away for you. i'm so sorry i can't. <3 please stay, hun.

Don´t kill yourself think of your child don´t you want to see him grow up?

i can't take it anymore. i have tried so hard not to but i can't hold back anymore i'm sorry.

U can

Baby...I love you-no matter what-you know that-but please don't do this, just try a little while longer?